i find some of the individuals who post here extremely disrespectful.  you people claim to be "true fans"....in which case you'd be respectful to the team as a whole....not make assumptions about certain things....not DWELL on things that may or may not be an issue. 

then i sign onto this site and see people saying after every game "wow, Delonte was off tonight....i bet his bipolar issues are getting to him."

now, for the sake of not having my account deleted, i'll refrain from what i really want to say to you people...because i dont think i could effectively say it without vile language. 

first off....not EVERYONE can play 100% every single game.  yes, people have "off-days".  it happens.  and it's fine. 

secondly...whatever may or mat not be going on with Delonte is NO ONE'S G.D. business.  no one's.  i commend him for being so brave and honest with his fans in admitting that he has things going on in his head sometimes.  but as someone who has severe depression myself, hearing other people saying things about me, making assumptions...it HURTS. 

Depression is a disease...people who dont have it have NO concept of what it does to your brain.  and still to many....it's a "disease" thats considered "laughable."  and people speak of it like it's victim dont be affected.  part of having depression is having esteem issues....and when people talk about it and put you down because of it....that's VERY difficult for many to deal with. 

anyway....the POINT of this blog is to state that i'm very aggravated and disappointed and disgusted by some of the things said here. 

i do not know Delonte.  but what i do know....is that he is a very special and talented person.  and whose eyes and smile can light up a part of me that as of late, NO ONE else can touch.  getting to watch Cavs games means so much to me, not just to see my team win, but to see someone's face who i consider an angel on earth. 

i am better because he's a part of the same existance as me.  wherever he is. 

show some respect.  you know who you are.

the look on Grant Hill's face says it all.

the following is a response i posted to someone's blog about Depression....and Delonte. 

i wanted to have it posted up on my profile here because i too suffer from depression, and i believe that the more people talk about it...the less alone others have to feel once they stumble across it. 

i embrace my demons....i have no problems discussing them.  they do not make me attractive but they are a big chunk of who i am.  i cannot pretend to be something i am not. 

this is how i feel about what i have come to discover that Delonte is battling:

"i applaud Delonte as well for being open with the world about himself...for being strong enough to stand up and say "yes, i have a weakness".

i am so sick of this "celebrity" mindframe that projects that there is no weaknesses, no ugliness, no mistakes, whatever. we are all ugly sometimes. beauty cannot exist without ugliness. i am a fan of ugliness.

Delonte is beautiful. he is beautiful because he is whoever he is. he is beautiful because he has faults. he is beautiful because he can admit to them.

i have not been a Cavs fan for long...only since this season, my Brother got me into them. i was watching a game with him and i first saw Delonte....

and those eyes...

my god. those eyes. even though he was in the game and kicking butt, i saw such a sadness (or something of the sort) within him. i cant explain it. it became a mission for some words to be said. i do hope Delonte reads this post, i dont know how else to reach him....or exactly what i should be saying.

i did not know anything of this "mood disorder" when i first became a fan. but i saw what was inside him...it must be that depressive radar. i have severe depression and i can pick people out of a crowd and isolate their demons.

let me just say this...after seeing his demon....

when i saw him on tv, talking to a reporter after a game, and he joked around a little and smiled....that smile couldve lit up the entire world.

i have never been to a Cavs game, nor have i ever met Delonte...but right now nothing would give me greater pleasure than to see him face to face....and smiling.

not much makes me smile anymore. i stopped getting help for my depression because i believe i am beyond saving. but i know his smile would certainly lead to one of my own.

Delonte i hope you read this. i want you to smile for me someday...that's something for me to want to fight for. that day that i could see that in person."

i hope in some time or space....that my words can help in some way.  that's all i have to offer.